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Sunday, December 07, 2003 I don't know why I go to some parties sometimes. No. Change that. I go to celebrate the person's birthday or the occassion they're celebrating, but that's really all. You get there and it's really just the same party everyone's reliving since High School. Over and over. Admittedly the venue changes etc., but the people are all still the same. We've grown a bit older, have perhaps a few more interesting stories to share, but that's it. And you're left sitting down for most of the night, talking to the people who were and will remain, your true friends. It was nice to catch up with a few people I haven't seen since High School, but other than that it's all meaningless small-talk. Really. It is. So what's you been up to? Oh you know, not much. Work. Uni. Life. Yourself? Yeah, same... Went here. Went there. Oh yeah... That's nice. It's the same with everyone though. But do others notice this? They speak a lot but say nothing. Words. No action. No anything. Nothing. Or am I the oddity observer who, unlike others, sees things differently? Don't get involved. Stay out of it. It's worked for me in the past. I think that's what I'm missing. Heartfelt communication. People saying what they mean; what they feel. You're not even interested / remotely concerned when you ask the meaningless questions. But they need to be asked to keep the awkward silences at bay, don't they? Anything to get you through the night and to ensure the facade of having a good time is preserved. If you're going to enter a conversation, at least ask how people are before speaking about yourself. Drivel. Bullshit. No matter how transparent and insincere the question is, ask it. At least that way it may seem as if you care. (We know otherwise, but it's OK...) In time, hopefully you'll start to ask those questions and mean it. You gotta start somewhere. Less about me. More about you. Less about you. More about me. Communication is a two-way process. Have you realised that yet? Do what's right. Stay at the party for speeches. Don't take the supposed 'better' offer. It is, after all, a friend's 21st - something that occurs once. Once. Once. Once. In time to come when we speak of this night, you'll not remember it. Your choice. You weren't there. I guess, then again, neither was I. Think of how your actions will have conseqeuences. Be a good boy. Drive. Responsibly. Remember why they want to be with you in the first place. Don't place blame. Live up to your responsibility as a fellow human being. Tell people of your plans. Your wishes. Don't put them in that position. Put yourself out - not others. Selfishness cannot be twisted. Have morals. Have virtues. Standards. Qualms. Respect. Trust. Dignity. Shame. Honesty. Heartfelt communication. I think that's what I'm missing. posted by AJ | 1:42 PM | | ||
